Wednesday, 18 April 2018

17 April 2018

17 April 2018, Tuesday.
I got a called from my mom & she said, "Atok dah takde....." I was like, no, you're just kidding. But after a awhile, my mom told me the whole story & I jst keep my mouth shut & starts to cry. I cried so hard & just can't stop crying. My roommates & friends were standing in front of me & comfort me. They hug me & I told them tht my grandpa was just passed away. I continued to cry & they rushing to find bus ticket to Putrajaya but there's no bus early in the midnight. My friends struggling to find one for me & they found one ticket to tbs & transit to KLIA2. I packed my things & luckily, Kartinie's boyfriend helped to drive me to TSK. After 7 hours of journey from Kuantan to Negeri Sembilan, I reached to my hometown & I saw a body with no soul laying on the bed with flawless face ever. He smile & I saw tht, his face was just calm & I know that he's going to heaven now and searching for his wife, who passed away abt 9 years ago, my lovely nenek! Alhamdulillah, everything's went well & smoothly. We settled down everything before zuhur. I can't stop crying bcs he's the reason why I am in UMP & further studies in engineering field. He's the one & only grandpa who loves to read newspaper everyday & loves all the foods that I cooked. He love to cook "sambal hijau ikan keli", my fav dishes. We love to share gossips & stories together.... But everything's gonna be memories. He left me without a word. I've been talking to myself that he's not gonna live longer bcs I can feel from his eyes & his body. I've asked him to stay here a bit longer at least he could see my graduation day. I've promise to buy him luxury things when I hv my own money. But,,,,, Allah loves u more. You are now heading to the heaven & rest in peace. Past 2 weeks, I've took care of u for a week during my midsem break. I never know that, it was the last time we spent our days together. A week of taking care of u, it was so precious. I've cooked yr fav meal, chic porridge. Gives u positive vibes. Gives u motivation.... Thank you for everything & sorry for not being there by yr side on ur last day in this world. I will always pray for your happiness up there. There's nothing to worry abt here. Just go & rest in peace. Find ur true love up there cuz she's been waiting for u quite long. May Allah bless u & forgive all yr wrongdoings in this cruel world. Al-fatihah....

Friday, 13 January 2017

Fav cover this Jan ❤

So this is my fav cover Ex's & Oh's by Ashley Tisdale & Vanessa Hudgens. I found this cover in twitter. I saw someone retweet this cover && yassss I'm so in love with their voices. Omg they're so beautiful in & out. They reminds me of High School Musical 😭😭💕💕

My 2017 ✨

Holla everyone! It's been awhile I didn't post anything here. So today I wanna share with u gais my new year wishes!!!!!!! Lols. Well, I have like a lots of wishes for this year. Before this, i mean like previous years before, I don't even have my own to-do-list thingy but since I'm now 19 y/o, I think I should do a to-do-list thingy in order to be a successful person luls hahahahahahaha ok, so now before I do my to-do-list, my first wishes for this year is ofc to be a better person for myself & everyone. Sec, I wish tht I'm strong enough to go through all the difficulties tht will come in the future. Third, I wish tht this year could be a very best year in my life. Fourth, I wish tht I will get 4flat in every sem in order to be a successful student in ump in shaa Allah, aamiin. Fifth, I wish tht I will never give up in everything after this. Sixth, I wish to have lots of moneyyyyy 💰💰💰💰💲💲💲💲 in my pocket hahahahahaha seventh, I wish tht there's a air-conditioning, TV in my hostel. ((Omgggggg I really hope that this one will come true!!!)) Ok next, I wish tht all the lecturers will not giving a lot of assignments to do & pls don't give it last min like previous sem hmmm 😭😭😭😭 nineth, I wish tht ump will upgrade their cafe ((I mean the menu!!! Pls do smthg diff than before. I'm so tired to look at the same dishes like everydayyyyy.. The menu make me feels sick)) ok then, I wish tht I will keep staying at the hostel without have to worry abt the merit thingy. Eleventh, I wish that my schedule for the coming sem will not too pack with classes. So I think that's all for the wishes list. Let's move on to our next agenda which is TO-DO-LIST 2017!!! Yayyyy hahahahahahaha omg idek why I'm so excited. Okay let's....


                       TO-DO-LIST 2017

1. Get at least 3.5 pointer & above for the upcoming semester.

2. Go for a short trip & vacay to Ipoh with my civilian girls.

3. Celebrate my birthday with besties since high school.

4. Spend the whole dayyyyy with my besties & fav ones Ain & Nadia.

5. Meet Iman & chillin' with her & the other fav girls.

6. Have fun with the girls, Afiqah & Naaziraa.

7. Go for a vacation with the big family.

8. Meet my crush on hari raya hahahahahahaha 

9. Get new handbags & shoes.

10. Get new scarfs from Duck/Sugarscarf.

11. Get new make-up thingy (mascara, foundation, eyeliner & etc)

I think that's all for now. If I have new wishes or the one that I wanna do on this year, I'll add on later. Hahahahahahahahahahaha thanks gais for reading my entry. If u gais have anything, pls comment below.

Thursday, 22 September 2016

Car boot sales @ UMP

So, hello everyone! I wanna share abt this one nice man. There's car boot sale at our university yesterday. Kartinie & I went to this one stall which they're selling many kinds of biscuits. Kartinie wanna buy her fav biscuit, so she told him tht she's just want that biscuit for only rm3. But then, when she wants to give the rm3, the uncle said "nvm, just take it. I know u came from far 😊" . We're both be likeeeee; "woww omggggg you're so nicee. Why you being so niceeeeeeee ppl?? 😭😭😭😭" we're both speechless & ofc said thank you so much then. May Allah bless you always & may your business will be successful. Aamiin 😉😊 so next, we went to this cutie mini stall which they're selling kinda cube ice-cream. Omg soooooo yummyyyy 😋🍦 yesterday was my very first time saw that kinda cube ice-cream yknow. At first I be like, okay what is this??? Is this an ice-cream??? The price is just rm2. Yaaa, I know that's so cheap isn't? So, I bought strawberry flavor & tinie's was keladi  flavor. The ice-cream tasted so yummy & veryyyyyyyyyyyy soft. Srsly, you guys should try tht cube ice-cream!!!!! There's a lot of stalls yesterday; I'm so not gonna describe each of the stalls hahahahahahahaha but there's various kinda things they're selling yesterday at car boot sale.

Tuesday, 16 August 2016


It's easy to trust ppl. Usually, if a person have a very good personalities & attitudes, we usually put high percentage of trust on them. Well, I've told myself, "not to trust ppl. Don't put yr trust easily on ppl. Don't even trust them even they're good to you." Butttt, nope! I do trust ppl so easily. I thought, if they're very close to me, so I can put 100% trust on them. Hahahahahahahahahaha I WAS WRONG!!!!. I've never thought that a person who are close to me, could lying to me. It's hard for me to believe how u could lie to me. You said that they are yours. It hurts my heart. Deeply hurt inside. Obviously, that's mine. It would be good if you jut tell me the truth. I'm so not gonna to blame u or what. I'm not going to raise up my voice. I just want u to tell me the truth. That's it. Yknow, if u keep lying to me, u keep pretending that nothing happens, idek what to say. I might be someone else. I might change myself 360. I might not be able to treat u like before. I might be a fake person in front of you. I've no idea why all of this happen. I've tried my best to stay & be positive. But, I can't. I don't even care abt wht you've took. But, it's all abt feelings. It's hurt. I am so careless on taking care of my own things. That's why I need a very good friends around me to always remind me abt my things. You're one of them. But, I was wrong & my thoughts are all totally wrong. I'm fine! It's okay. There's a reason behind of this. Thanks to u, I've learned smthg new in my life. Don't put your trust on anyone except your family. No matter how good a person is, no matter how close they are to you, pls don't ever put your trust on them. Even they're very  close to you, we don't even know whether they're being real or just pretending for the good sake of themselves. Taking advantages on others?? Hahahaha well, I'll waiting for you to tell me the truth. I will always keep waiting for u to just be honest to me & to yrself. I hope you realize what you've done & fix this thing & mess. U supposed to say smthg. You supposed to feel smthg when you're lying to me. & you supposed to do smthg. It's veryyyyy easy to say just a word, "sorry". But, you're the one who make it difficult & complicated. I hope you're reading this & message me as soon as possible.

Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Syawal, Eid Mubarak!

It's 6/7/2016! First day of Syawal. So, happy Eid Mubarak everyone. I'm taking this opportunity to seek apologies for all my wrongdoing to all of u. I'm sorry if I did smthg wrong towards u gais especially to all my family & friends. I'm trying to be good & become a better person, day by day. I love all the people around me. I miss y'all 😭😭😭😭😭 to all my classmates, u gais are the best! You'll always be in my heart ♥ without u gais, I'll never be like what I am now. I've learned a lot from u gais. Too many memories that we've created together. & I hope to meet all of u soon. Eventho we're always be like cats & dogs but our relationship is too strong to handle yknow hahahahaha aiceh. No matter how terrible our relationship is, but still I love y'all. I'm sorry gais for all my mistakes, my words, my actions & all. To all my classmates at UMP, i still in process to get know each of you. I don't really know u gais well now bcs our relationship is still new. And I hope, we can be good friends from now on. Sorry bcs I'm not too friendly with new people around me. I hope y'all understand my situation is & be friendly with me. To all my roommates, Atiqah, Que & Emy, thank you for being such a good friends of mine at UMP. Thank you for being so kind & friendly. I'm sorry if I did hurt your feelings & all. Last but not least, to all my best friends, thank you for everything. You gais are still the best!!!! I'm sorry for all my mistakes, my words, my actions & so on. Thank you for still being my best friends & be there whenever I need u gais. I love all of u. Thank you Nadia, Ain, Intan, Iman, Aidil... I love all of you, ppl!!!!! Thank you for everything & selamat hari rayaaaaaa. Maaf zahir & batin. 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉✨

Saturday, 25 June 2016

Lovely Grandma

We're met this grandma at Masjid Jamek, Kuala Pahang. She's very lovely & nice person. I was the one who started the conversation. While we're busy chit-chat, suddenly, she's asking me & my friends to come over to her house to take mangoes. And I was like, okay let'sssss. She gave us sweets, mangoes & also watermelon to eat. She's even talked about her life, family. So many challenges tht comes to her life. But still, she lives well. She lost her husband, she lost her sons, she lost her mum... She lives alone at a very small house. The moment when we're at her house, there's so many plants & flowers. She said, she loves to plant various types of flowers & even vegetables as well as fruits. She's happy with her life but I know, deeply inside, she's suffered a lot. May Allah bless this old woman with happiness!!!! Thank you for treating us nicely, grandma. We love u & pls stay happy 😘💕💞

Sunday, 19 June 2016

Happy Father's Day, Ayah!

Happy Father's Day to my one & only dad, Huzairi Bin Rosli!!!! Alhamdulillah, thank God for giving me such a great father ever. You're always giving your best just to fulfill all my sibling's wishes. I am such a lucky girl to have u in my life. You taught me a lot of things in this world & life. You're always being there for me 24/7 whenever I needs u around. Only God knows how much I appreciate u & how much I love you. Whenever I said that I need smthg or anything, you always tried your best to get what I want. Alhamdulillah, you're not that kind of "strictly" person. Eventho u have your own principles & disciplines in life, but u never beat anyone of my siblings. Whenever we're doing smthg out of control or doing smthg bad, you're not going to beat us but you loves to give advices & lots of positive inputs that make us think like, "ohhhh we shouldn't do that.." "Ohhh it's bad actually.." "Ohhh that's not good.." Year smthg like that. You even gives us a hug. I do admit it that sometimes you're annoying but u know, I love you... You're truly kind to others. You loves to help others whenever they're in trouble. Sometimes, I do think that you're too kind & u shouldn't help others that much bcs some of them might take that as advantages to themselves. You always asking us to be patient when we do smthg. Don't push ourselves too much. Well, the most important thing is you always put us as your priority. You're our priority as well, dad. You always reminds my siblings and I to study smart & always get good results for the good sake of our future as well as in our life. All your words are really meaningful... I love the way u teach us as children. I love the way u gives us advices. I love the way you're trying hard to get smthg for us. I love the way u put your best & your efforts. I love u from A to Z. From 0 to smthg. From nothing to everything. I'm going to end this by saying that you're great & nobody can be exactly like u. You're my superhero. You're everything!!!! I promise u that I'll try my best to give u a restaurant since you're good at cooking. Okay, in shaa Allah, I'll give u a beautiful restaurant, one fine day. Last but not least, thank you thank you thank you & thank you... I love you & will always do 😘💕💖💓💞

Thursday, 16 June 2016

First Day at University Malaysia Pahang, UMP (Gambang)

Such a tiring day for me & ofc for my parents as well. The day before I enter to this place, I was keep hoping & praying to have such a good friends, roommates, classmates & so on. And alhamdulillah, I met some few good friends tht are truly kind.. The place was quite nice & the room was alhamdulillah, okay & comfortable for sure. I met Ain, Que & another one girl from sabahan at the office. Were patiently waiting for the matrix card. Like srsly, they're really kind & veryyyyyy comfortable to be with. But the prob is, we're not in the same courses. Haiyooooo 😥😭😩 okay next, roommates!!!!!! My roommates are really understanding & ofc veryyyyyy nice ppl. Atiqah, Que & Emilyana. Atiqah was a person I met before at the office. We're be like, "yayyyyyyyyy satu bilik!!!". Hahahahaha 😂😂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎊🎊 let's move to the room. I am the first person who entered the room. I choose to pick the lower bed (it's double decker). There was no fan accept for the upper bed. The uni used the wall fan. So, i asked my dad to go buy one fan for me since I didn't felt the fan's air. He went to Kuantan & brought a lil cutie fan for me huhuhu. My mum was busy helping me with my clothes & things. Thank God for giving me such a lovely & understanding parents. My roommates were all from Pahang. And their homes were just nearest this place. I am the only one from Selangor 😭😭😭😭😭 I've registered a few days ago. And yesterday was my very first day to enter the classes. I choose to further my studies in Civil Engineering bcs I think I should try & challenge myself. Hmmm that's it. Idek what else to share abt. So, WELCOME DEARSELF TO UMP, GAMBANG!!!!!!! 🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊

Wednesday, 8 June 2016

Attitudes; Customers VS Sellers (Online Shop)

I can't understand why ppl should be so harsh & have no respect to others. Well, I am a human being. I do have feelings. If u can't put your trust on me, then pls put your trust on your parcel. Ppl being so damn mean just bcs they didn't get what they want. I am doing this online shop is not for fun. I'm doing this bcs I love business & I'm so into it. I'm doing this to get experiences on how to do things by myself. Like others online shops have received. I am so disappointed on how some ppl in Malaysia communicate with their sellers. You're pushing me & even says some words that hurt deep inside. Honestly, I am so giving up with some of these customers. I just want you to respect me & watch out every each words tht you're typing. I put all my trusty & respect to all my customers. I even believe on every each words tht you're trying to tell. Well, sometimes I do post you're parcel late due to things I have to settle. But I do inform you abt it. I even apologize to every mistakes tht I do. If your parcel are late, you can't put your blame on me. Sometimes, the parcel can't be detected by the tracking number bcs of the system breaking down. But, after a day, the parcel safely arrived at your home. Look!!! Some of my customers, understand & some are not. They're keep pushing me. Well gaissss, im not working there. It's not my fault. I've done my job & that's it. I do love online shop. I've bought so manyyyyyy things from online shop. I even gave a present like every year to my dad through online shop. So, I understand your feelings. I know how worried you are abt your parcel. I know. And I felt the same thing every time I buy things from online shop. I know how scared you are. But pls, put your trust & believe on your seller. If you're not sure, just put your trust on your parcel. In shaa Allah, everything's going to be okay. Stay patient & calm!!!!! I'm sharing this as a reminder to everyone out there who wants to buy through online shop. I bet some of the sellers out there might already faced the same thing like i do. Just stop being so typical Malaysian. It's already 2016 & you should open up your mind & see the world. Think out of box. Speak wisely. Improve for the good sake of the country. Show to the world that there's no such a typical Malaysian. That's it!!!!! Respect your customers & respect the sellers as well. Show how harmonies Malaysia is.

Friday, 27 May 2016

New Friends

I miss my new friends... A few months ago, I went to Putra Intellect International College (PIIC) in Puchong to further studies in English course ((it's just a short course)). Vista Prima was my condo, where I used to live while I'm at Puchong. For the veryyyy first time, I feels how's my life is when I was far awayyyyyyyy from home & ofc family. Fathia Latiff a.k.a Fathia Zulfikar. She's the one person I met @ condo's office to take card & keys. My very first impression was, "okay, she looks pretty & u bet she's a very kind person and I should get know her better. Or maybe we can be good friend after this?? I hope that she's one of my housemate hehehehehe...." Yes, and I'm truly mean it. Oh yea, I went there with a good friend of mine, Azah. We're not that close in primary school, but we're getting closer abt a few years ago bcs we're used to be classmates @ tuition. Next, Ayda Jebat instead of Paudziah Aida. Idek why I've been calling her with "Ayda Jebat"... OK, forget it. Our meeting was a coincidence. I met her in the lift. At that time, she's busy moving all her stuff from the 1st floor to the 12th floor. Okay everyone u should know that I am the first person who saying hello & greet them yknow bcs I find they're diff & I know tht they're kind & ofc will be good friends of mine during my stays in PIIC. And yessss, i am so proud of myself bcs all my thoughts were true & they're really good & were reallyyyy reallyyyyy reallyyyyyyy good. Thank God for giving me a chance to get know them. We spent our 24/7 hrs together, everyday. We do all the things together & get know each other better, day by day. We also have our own nicknames. Fathia aka Mummy bcs she acts exactly like mumsie. She's always reminds us to control our behavior at public & so on. Aida aka Adik/Mama. At first, she is like a lil sis. She's so close with mummy & loves to tell Fathia abt what we're doing at back & all hahahahahaha and then she turns to be our mama bcs Fathia had to finish her studies earlier & need to go to do her Umrah. Azah, she's unpredictable. She just loves being with her phone like 24/7 hrs non-stop hahahahahahajkjk. We love to do crazy things, laughing so damn hard, singing like a frogie & many moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! Layla Syakirah & Aisyah Afifah. They came & registered late. We're also close with each other. From 4 to 6 ppl in a group. We shared many stories... We love to do bedtime stories hahahahahahaha but our bedtime stories was abt our times in kindergarten. We do almost everything together. I am so happy that Allah gives me a very good gifts. I'll never forget all our memories together. Thanks for everything & for all the good memories. I love you all girls. You gaisssss are really incredible. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Lots of love, Anis Syazwani... 😘💖💞💓💕

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